Hi

Hey hey, long time no see.  I'm flattered that people still read this after not having updated for about 2 months.  Please allow me to do so right now.

First and foremost, I'M DONE MY EXAMS!!! I'm free. It's nice. hee hee

Next order of business: I "met" this really nice, cool guy on Manhunt.  It's rare to find people there who are there for anything but sex and immediately.  So it was unexpected but very hoped-for.  We're going to meet this weekend, and I'm excited. :D

I'm going to Florida and Argentina for the holiday!!!! Have some cousins in FLA and my bro and I are headed south from there for New Year's.  Man am I excited for that!  It's going to be a week of booze and hot guys on the beach.  I'll take lots of pics, don't you worry, lol.

I'm going to Cuba this summer to collect data for my honours thesis next year.  On hawksbill sea turtles.  Whoo!!!  I want to figure out if the Cuban population of hawksbills is polyandrous, that is whether or not one female a) mates with more than one male and if so b) whether or not there are multiple fathers per clutch of eggs.  This type of research may help conservationists develop better strategies to preserve the global population of this critically endangered species.

My housemate's snake was eating a (dead) mouse today and its guts exploded and shot out of its ass!!!!! It was SO GROSS/hysterically entertaining. No, I don't take pleasure in seeing animals suffer but it was already dead.

I'm climbing lots.  It feels really good to challenge myself to a route and get better at it at each attempt.  I'm also playing squash.  All of which is keeping me active and not depressed :D

I'll be updating more frequently.  Hope everyone reading this is doing well. Drop me a line!

Check this shit out!!!

"The Burmese python tried to swallow its fearsome rival whole but then exploded."

Check out the rest of the article here.

"Conclusion"

Bueno. I said I'd update on the boy situation, so aquí está.

After mucha deliberación, I decided to write him a second email clarifying how I felt...at the end of which I wrote, "you probably have a lot on your plate right now, so talk to me when you're ready. In the meantime, please just let me know you heard me."

He messaged me right away, apologising for not being in touch more; he easily diffused the tension and we just talked about how I felt, how he felt. We were "over" emotionally -- we both concluded that there was no real chance for a relationship at this point; then he noticed a line I had slipped in there: " Part of me rejects that we can't just fool around without there being consequences in terms of our friendship. The other part wants to safeguard our friendship. As I said, I like you and hanging out with you... but come on, we had some chemistry there."

He pointed out that I had said that I was OK with fooling around. I was a little embarrassed but assented. We continued chatting, slipping in little flirty messages every now and then (you know where this is going, don't you? lol). We played online checkers while sending voice messages. The game was over but we were still voice messaging each other, flirting more and more.

He ended up at my place. We fooled around for a couple of hours. He went home.

It was pretty hot.

He left his ring here.... and I'm holding it hostage (insert wicked grin here). It's one of those Frodo-rings. I'm going to have to organize some sort of competition or feat for him to earn it back (insert wickider grin here).

So there you go. A bit of a plot twist for you.

They like me! They really like me!

Summer photos 077
Originally uploaded by RainyWednesdays.

I recently got this picture entered into a photo contest on BBC.co.uk in Spanish. You likey? To see the rest of the pics, click here. My pic is in Galería IV.

Hope you enjoy!

Wow

The possibility for love comes in the most unexpected situations sometimes, doesn't it?

My opportunity, I guess, started when I met up with a friend at a screening of a movie at a "Queerientation" event on campus. We had a fun night with some other friends at the sports bar and didn't talk for a bit after that.

Two weeks later, we were chatting on msn and both realized we didn't have anything going on that night, so we decided to go see a movie together. At the time, I wasn't thinking in terms of going on a date, but it kind of turned into one. We came back to my place and talked and played with my geckos (score! useful critters, lol).

The next night he wanted to come over and hang out. We watched Family Guy for awhile and then just sat and listened to music. We didn't even say much, just sat there enjoying it. The sexual tension was realllly thick. But I still hadn't really thought to myself what I wanted out of this. Then he asked me if I wanted to kiss him. I freaked. Yeah, I did want to, but I was afraid of where we would be after that. Would it be awkward?... So we didn't kiss.

This guy is super cute. He's taller than me, and has red, curly hair and beautiful eyes. He's got a great, honest sense of humour which I really find liberating.

The next week was pretty busy, and we didn't see each other till last Monday. Which is when it all happened. We watched What Lies Beneath (a perfect movie that gives you an excuse to be touchy-feely, lol) and we ended up spooning, then kissing. Man, this guy can kiss.

We made out for a couple of hours. It was really fun: kissing, wrestling, feeling; definitely enjoyed that. But there was another tension in the air, that kept stopping us at every step.

At this point we were both very uncertain about what we wanted. Honestly, at that point, I figured I wanted to take is slowly so we could have a little time to think about what we were doing. So we stopped at making out, and after kissing him goodnight I went home.

Then I got the email. He's not ready for a relationship. He basically said that he doesn't see any other choice than to just be friends. He wants to experience all that the university environment has to offer. And I completely agree with him on that point, except that he says this conflicts with a relationship because he can't do open relationships. Fuck. I was really disappointed that this was happening, especially since he had been the one to come onto me and that I was now into him.

I replied to his email, saying that while I was disappointed, this was alright with me. Stupid me. I didn't articulate myself very well. I'm still very confused about what I wanted out of it too. One line in his email was "Not that all I ever wanted was to fool around." Well I'm not sure that all I ever wanted was a relationship. But he has a really good point: that "friends with benefits" doesn't work, that it would necessarily cause attachment and tying down (not necessarily in a literal sense! lol!). I don't really know, I've never tried.

But right now I'm feeling conflicted and stupid about what I wrote. Cause I do want him as a friend but I also want HIM. I'm depressed that this possibility for romantic love has practically vanished. And the thing is, now that I've replied to his email he thinks that I'm just fine with the situation. We haven't actually spoken since his email, but I assume that whenever we do we'll get a clearer picture of what's going on. But I hate this insecurity, this seeming impossibility of any kind of relationship other than simple friendship, be it dating or a more casual relationship. I think in his mind it's settled (at least that we have no sexual business with each other any more) but I'm kind of hoping that that's not the case. Fak! What happens now!?

Epiphany

Some sea turtles have colour vision.  A recent publication states that it is possible the have some of rods or cones necessary (I don't remember which) to see some colours of the visible electromagnetic spectrum, particularly those between 500 and 580 nm (that is, some greens and yellows).  This is moderately surprising since blue is the colour that penetrates water the best (because it has the highest energy of the colours of the spectrum).  Presumably, this lets the herbivorous turtles see as they forage in the relatively shallow pastoral waters with lots of vegetation.

That just made me happy.

Most pun I've ever had

Mahatma Gandhi, as you know, walked barefoot most of the time, which produced an impressive set of calluses on his feet. He also ate very little, which made him rather frail and with his odd diet, he suffered from bad breath. This made him: a super calloused fragile mystic hexed by halitosis.

Running from the T. Rex 

Visiting the CN Tower 

Nat and I at the beach while she was visiting from Panama 

Back to the crunch

It's crazy to see how fast time flies. When you're having fun and even when you're not.

But I've certainly been having lots of fun. Summer for me is full of spending time outside, making friends, hanging out with my campers at work,sailing, making money, etc.

And the very thought of fall and winter make me shudder. It's just a natural response. Once leaves start falling, it's a universally-known symbol (in the temperate regions of the world, I guess) that school is starting soon and that the summer slack-off is over. In some years, when there's nothing going on in the summer, that's a good thing, but this year in particular has had a great summer, and I'm honestly a little depressedto go back to school.

It's mostly the fact that many of my friends are moving to other places, and that I'm going to have to come out of my shell a little to find new friends. For many people, meeting new people is very fun, but sometimes I slightly dread meeting people. I'm a pretty shy person and it's often
difficult for me to be with large groups of people. Any suggestions for meeting gay people in a mid-sized university town?

Enjoy the next couple of weeks! Cause after that it's back to the crunch!